Monday, May 31, 2010
One thing I almost forgot. Marc had to work this morning and when he got home, the girls and I were laughing so hard in the kitchen. He said, "Is this what it's like all the time?" I waited for my girls to be out of school so I could hang out with them. It has been well worth the wait.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
When I went biking with Scheri last week, I fared okay, but she had also done a speed workout earlier in the day. She usually kicks my booty on the bike, my perspective - but she's always nice about it, so this wasn't anything new; however, now someone else will be joining us. Apprehensive. What if I end up struggling the entire time? What if it is hard to keep up? I chose to do a marathon for the first time in 2006 because I was in a situation that felt very out of control, a business relationship. Completing a marathon, but most of all running, felt like something that I could control. I controlled my running for several years: how hard I worked, how high I set my goals, how far I wanted to go, how fast I wanted to go. Now, I can no longer control my running. Ultimately, I can't control anything - that has been so obvious lately. And I can't control my bike ride tomorrow. So when you think your in control of something in your life, think again. But most importantly, know that whatever happens, in whatever situation, God is in control and He can see the big picture. Some good advice, I think I'll take it.
Friday, May 28, 2010
Thursday, May 27, 2010
We entered her classroom this morning. The teacher graciously left behind a lot of teaching materials and helpful tools; however, like my classroom when I got it, there is a lot of sorting through and cleaning to do. I sat on a pod of desks and just looked around at all of the stuff. Immediately, trash cans were brought into the room and we began to dump. We filled up two large cans and then decided she would have to come back several days to really put a dent into it. When I got my classroom, the teacher was retiring. He didn't have a desk, but a couch. He didn't have a table for reading group, but pillows for the kids to sit on. Nice for reading, but not necessarily for teaching. Everything was kind of thrown in the cabinets. I came in two days a week, and completely emptied the cabinets one by one, threw away what I wouldn't use and neatly put back in what I would use. I took home projects to organize in front of the T.V. including whole punching calendar pieces and putting them in order and in Ziploc bags by the month. I brought in cleaning products and cleaned off shelves. I bought baskets to put things in. I bought shelves. I bought paint and painted where it needed - now we have great building managers that will help with this. Without trying to overwhelm Lori, and I know she is reading this, I tried to tell her that I spent all summer doing this for my room to get it the way it is.
Unless you're a teacher, you probably don't think about what goes into creating the perfect atmosphere for our children to learn, but it is our job as teachers. The best part about stepping into her classroom this morning was watching her creativity start to flow and a learning environment form out of her imagination, all for her students. It is a blank slate. She will make it a masterpiece.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Back in January and February, I was training with Halee, my 13 year old, for her first half marathon. I started doubling up on long runs because, coincidentally, I was going to be doing a 50 miler myself. In February, I finished out a weekend of high mileage and a few days later could not step forward with my right leg. That was my first symptom. I had to turn my body sideways to get that leg forward. It last a couple of days, and I chalked it up to a sore hip flexor. Pain in my groin area continued to worsen. I kept running. On a run, it took me about 1/2 mile to warm-up, before I would stop limping, and then I was usually okay, but if I stopped and had to start again, I would limp and have to go through the warm-up process all over again. Not running, I limped constantly. My groin, or what I thought at the time was my hip flexor, hurt constantly, running or not. Before I knew what was wrong I would say, "It feels like I am running bone on bone," meaning my femur and hip with no cushion. Early March, when I ran I felt a knot in my right butt cheek. The group of girls I run with and myself assumed it was from my body overcompensating for my injury and it was just a sore muscle. However, I still have that know and now know that is part of my injury, which I believe to be my stress fracture. In the middle of March, I decided to schedule a doctor's appointment to try and get a shot of cortisone - thinking that would take care of it all. My appointment was about 12 days out, so I was going to continue running, because I have never taken a break. Scheri, my running partner, and I did a gradual downhill, 10 mile run in which I was in excruciating pain the entire time. I had to slow from my normal pace and even wanted to turn back. She suggested I take a rest until my appointment. I tried one more easy run with Marc, my husband, in which I couldn't even bear the pain and only made it 3 miles. I decided to take 10 days off until my appointment. During that time, I iced it several times a day. I had my doctor's appointment and got the news, in bits and pieces. (See my other blog entries for gaps.)
My pain now? I ran the Boston Marathon in complete pain. I can't describe it. My groin and butt hurt the entire way. So running is excruciating - I don't run anymore. Now I am swimming a lot, and cycling some - -would like to more, but have gotten a little lazy. I still have that knot in my butt that just won't go away. I feel it when I am sitting and standing, no matter what. Dr. White, my doctor, recreated the groin pain last week by turning my leg a certain way, and it lasted 5 days. The groin pain comes and goes depending on my activity. Kicking in the pool seems to do it after, but not during. This morning as I sit here, it just feels sore, almost a raw feeling. Very rarely does it go down into my thigh or up to my waste, but it does occasionally.
Dr. White said the groin pain was the tear; however, when I Google a hip stress fracture (femoral neck), it has the same exact symptoms of a hip labral tear. When my stress fracture gets cleared, I will know what ONLY a tear feels like. I hope this helps.
Monday, May 24, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
I arrived at Dr. Brian White's office in Denver for my 1:30pm appointment. I was greeted in the parking garage by a man in a boot who held the door and said, "I don't miss those," referring to my crutches. He then wanted to know what was going on. In the short 2 minute ride up the elevator, he knew that I was in hopes of some answers and on my way to getting them. My appointment started with hip x-rays and quickly, Dr. White came into the room. He began with the very typical, "Start back from the beginning and be sure to include why you are on crutches now." Which in doctor's terms, I have come to realize means, "Don't lie, tell me everything, including you ran the Boston Marathon on a stress fracture." So I proceeded to give him the run down. Then I hit the little bump in the road...yes, I ran a marathon on it. I can't believe how doctors react when I say it. Maybe I should start to believe it. They all react the same. They all tell me how crazy I am. You would think I just told them that I ran over an old lady in a cross-walk in front of their building. "You did what?" He got over it quickly and moved on from the moment, performed a physical, and then went through my options. All the while, I bombarded him with question after question after question. He confirmed: my stress fracture HAS to be completely healed and cleared before I can be operated on. I have to stay on crutches until I walk into the hospital for surgery. Then I will enjoy them after as well. He advised me to invest in some new, upgraded pads. I will. He wants to give me as much time as possible to heal, while working with my teaching schedule. WOW! So, we worked backwards. School starts the first week of August. Back up 3 weeks, July 8. Back up about 3 more weeks, my MRI, June 21. (If the MRI is not clear, it gives him 3 weeks to book a surgery.) The June 21st MRI will be compared with my MRI done in March and they will be able to see, hopefully, improvement and complete healing. I am happy to have a date! Post-op timeline: 6 months until I can try to take my first running steps, and he was serious. One question that I had, and I know some of my loving family members may have as well, "Was this caused entirely from running?" His answer, "Yes, 100%" Some people can run hard forever and things like this never happen, they are "built" for it. My hips aren't built like a Kenyans.
Until surgery, I get to ride my road bike and swim, no running, no surprise. So I celebrated with a swim and have set up some swim/ride dates with my girls. Since the outdoor pool is open, I will be hanging out there more too. It won't be a bad summer afterall. I have so many plans: vacation to California, the girls have camps, camping trips, MRI, surgery, swimming, biking, gardening, and hanging out with the girls!
Monday, May 17, 2010
Friday, May 14, 2010
Noelle, a patient of Dr. Philippon and now a 'go-to' for me, commented on my last post triggering a phone call today. She asked me if I had called Dr. Brian White in Denver. Why I had spaced this doctor in Denver, I am not sure; however, he is a doctor that studied under Philippon and has a much shorter wait time. So I called and have an appointment next Wednesday with him. I was told that his wait time for surgery is only 3-6 weeks. Once again, my hopes are back up.
In the meantime, I received a call from Madeline at Dr. Philippon's office. She said that he had reviewed my films and felt I was a good candidate for surgery. Nothing about my stress fracture. Things that make you go, "Hmmmm." So I will wait to hear how soon I can get in, but have a feeling it will still be that dreaded 6 months. It's okay, I have gotten use to all of this for now. It is not my timing any longer, that is obvious.
What I am looking forward to, 70 degree days! We have a bunch coming and it has been 30s and 40s still in Colorado. Sunshine and gardening hasn't sounded better.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
So I am going to enjoy my summer and have blast with each day! I am going to enjoy my vacation and not worry about getting back for surgery. I am going to get healthy, with or without surgery - it is out of my hands, so that I can begin the school year ready to do my best!
Saturday, May 8, 2010
This was very successful last year, but I did not end up doing it too much this year. Tiering is where you pre-assess the students and small group them accordingly. So if 5 students know 8/12 concepts, you only teach them the 4 remaining concepts, and then extend their learning, for example. It is a great way to differentiate instruction, but can be a lot of work. I did it with math regularly last year, and the students learned. Next year I also get a new math curriculum, so why not start it up again full force. While I am writing this, I had a brainstorm for how this can be done in reading as well. I can make my reading groups more fluid, almost daily.
There is always something that can be worked on as teacher. Our job is always changing. We are not only teachers, but always students ourselves.
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Every morning I talk with a friend on the way into work. We are very close and she has had many surgeries on her foot. She suggested I look into the other doctors that were recommended to me. She said, "If they have a wait time, then you know, you have done everything." So I quickly called Dr. Byrd in Tennessee. Within 30 minutes, I had spoken with 2 people from his office, YES TWO, and one of them for an extensive amount of time. She answered all of my questions, and I felt more comfortable than I have in the last 6 weeks. Dr. Byrd is about 6 weeks out from when he receives your films, which will be this Tuesday, after I get my new hip xrays and they are overnighted. That will give me enough time to finish out my school year, go on a two week vacation, and get to Tennessee for surgery.
In the meantime, I emailed Meghan, Dr. Philippon's surgical coordinator, and she confirmed the wait time for Dr. Philippon, about 5 months once he decides to treat me. He is still in that deciding stage. I have kept the process going with him just in case I change my mind. He should have gotten my hip xrays late last week, and I assume I will hear from his office this week.
In requesting my arthrogram results to send to Dr. Byrd, I was able to look at the report: I have three tears. One they label as a "full-thickness" tear. They also say that one could be from degeneration. The forth diagnosis: Bone marrow edema in the femoral neck, my stress fracture.